Last Year's Lessons

This past year (2009) has been quite the year. I think I've learned a lot this year. And I think I've grown up and found out who I am, or at least who I want to be. There have been many lessons learned.
There were some troubles last year, and a couple of times I started hating myself. Both of the troubles had to do with my "friends". One time I about gave up, I stopped eating because I was so stressed and then I became more stressed because I was losing weight and none of my clothes were fitting, which made me eat even less. What a cycle. I don't think I really learned anything that time around. The worse one was when my cousin, who I love so very very much, basically disowned me. This time I learned something. I've learned that when you love someone, it doesn't mean you have to let them walk all over you. And that was really hard for me to grasp. It was like I didn't care how many people walked all over me, I thought that was how it was supposed to be. Being a Christian and all, I thought, you should do whatever you could for whoever asked. But that means you're being taken advantage of, and the Bible says nothing about that.
Basically I think I've grown up. I'm not the completely shy, awkward, kind of tomboy I was at the beginning of 2009. I'm now the still shy, a little awkward, ok with not being liked, ok with being a little out there, and semi-confident almost 16 year old girl. All in all, I think I've learned to be comfortable in my own skin. That's probably the hardest lesson I've ever learned, but I think that now that I've learned it, I will be able to show the world the full potential of me.