My Poreclain Heart

I have so many questions regarding this life. Most of them revolve around what teenage girls are thinking. First of all, although I am a girl, I do not understand most girls. Well, I don't understand most people at all. But girls especially. Guys are generally easy. Girls on the other hand... whoa. Not only do I not understand most girls, I don't even understand myself. Anyways, that's not exactly what I meant by writing this...
Every other Thursday I clean this ladie's house. It's a pretty easy job, I just clean the floors. It takes about an hour, and for that hour I'm by myself; free to think. Think and listen to music while I mop. I've had some pretty big revelation's while cleaning that house. Today I was thinking about myself, not in a self-centered sort of way, but just trying to understand what my dumb brain goes through. Basically I was thinking about this huge situation that's been going on. I have this friend and my sister hates him. Maybe hate is a strong word, or maybe it's the perfect word to describe her feelings. Either way, she strongly dislikes him and tells him outright her distaste for him. Her main problem is the fact that he "likes" me, but also "likes" other girls because he can't date me, because I don't date. But I still talk to him. I let him keep liking me like that, even though I know it's stupidity. Even though I know it will never lead to anything (or at least for many many many year).
And then I realized how stupid all of us girls are. We say we want true love. We want Prince Charming. The perfect man. Edward Cullen. But we don't ever give them the chance to be the courteous gentleman that we all want. We pounce. We take over. And if we want true love, love that's going to last till death do us part, why in the world do we allow what we allow from guys? Seriously. The majority of high school couples KNOW that they will not be marrid to whoever. Their "relationship" probably won't last a year, and if it does it won't last through college. So why do we do it? Do we really want "THE ONE" to have to glue us back together? Because whether you believe it or not every ended relationship that you ever have is going to chip away a little bit of your heart. A part that you can't give your husband, because someone else has that part of you.
I don't want my future husband to have to have the tedious job of stitching me back up. I want to be whole, so he doesn't have to worry that part of me is with someone else.
Though this all seems to be me rambling, and maybe nothing is connecting to anyone but me, basically what I'm saying is:
I have a porcelain heart. I'm very breakable. I must be handled with care, and it would be worth my while to let no one at all handle me util its true love. Because your true love won't break you. All those others, they don't care. Maybe that's harsh. I'm sure they care, but they aren't as careful because you don't belong to them.